Nine months of breastfeeding and I’ve called it quits. Honestly, it’s 9 months longer than I thought we would manage, after all of the issues the first time around. It feels weird to me to say I’m proud of feeding my son for 9 months. I’ve fed his brother for 3 years and I don’t take much pride in that. But then he probably does have more chicken nuggets than he should. I feed myself every day. I sometimes even “cook” (I use the term loosely) for my husband. Breastfeeding is super hard but having a baby is super hard so maybe I’m proud of keeping the kids alive, full stop.
Recently I had thought we would feed for a year – go straight from mum’s milk to cow’s milk. But then the baby got teeth. These two little razor sharp teeth. Teeth which felt like cut glass when he nipped my nips. I tried a loud “ow” – this resulted in giggles from the gremlin. I tried squeezing his ear, taking him off the boob, telling him “no” loudly. My nips were on fire between feeds. I started to dread feeding. Those feelings of anxiety I had with feeding Lockie came flooding back. I started to think about switching to a bottle and I didn’t hate the idea.
Turns out Jamie didn’t hate the idea either. He was already happy taking the odd bottle and formula doesn’t seem to upset his tummy or phase him at all. I was concerned he might not be keen on a bottle in the middle of the night but no issues there. He does seem to drink a lot less than Lockie did. When you’re breastfeeding you don’t really know how much they’re drinking, do you?
It’s now been just over 24 hours since his last breastfeed and we’re both doing well. I’ve pumped once to relieve some pressure – interestingly only righty was full, lefty has always been a bit of an underachiever. I have had a couple of moments of “will he still love me” but when I visualise feeding I honestly don’t want to do it. And yes, he does still seem to love me. At the end of the day, we have to stop sometime – either now or when he starts school, ha ha!
When did you stop breastfeeding? Do you have any tips for stopping the milk makers?